Today is one of those days. I feel down, without any clear reason why. I often think the weather has a pull on our emotions. I woke up to the torrential downpours of the coast. Even my born and bred coastal boyfriend found the idea of walking to work in it loathsome. After three years of more rain than sunshine I still have a difficult time mustering up motivation on days like this.
I was born in a place with four very distinct seasons. Frigid cold and blizzards could be expected any time from November to February. Okay who am I kidding? October to March. April and May brought some rain but the blooming of vibrant flowers and the return of green on the trees. June until August generally bring heat waves that rival the cold snaps of winter in terms of comfort. They also bring gorgeous days at the lake and campfires at night. September and October were my favourite months of them all. It is sweatshirt and jeans weather and the changing colours are outstanding. The reds and oranges and yellows as the leaves fall to the ground like a kaleidoscope.
I still miss each season and it’s uniqueness. I loved rain prior to moving out here. In fact part of the reason I loved it here, when on vacation, was the rain! Now that I have been here for a significant period of time I know that coastal rain is different than prairie rain. I once made the comment when visiting my hometown that the rain was wetter on the coast. My dad just gave me that look. The one that says, “You do know how ridiculous that sounds?” But I hold tight to that statement! It hangs in the air as a mist or fog. It soaks right through to your bones. The rain here rarely brings thunderstorms. There is no excitement no bright displays of forks of lightning in the sky and booming thunder that rattles you to the core. The rain here is just …rain.
That is why, to this day three years later, I find days such as this so depressing. Like the rain and it’s gloomy nature I feel it’s weight pressing down on me. Hopefully the sun breaks free of the web of clouds-both outside and in my soul.